I've been searching in that waiting room

My mind keeps going back and forth and I still find myself in the same moment I've been in at various points throughout the years. A sort of longing and a heightened realization that I've been in this waiting room for so long. I think I need to cut back on the music I listen to, music has a way of effecting how you feel.  Everything from here just seems blurry and I can only see about a few feet ahead. C'est la vie, I suppose. Sometimes you just ache to see a clearer vision! What lies ahead! It's something so mysterious and unattainable. You need to know. Then again, sometimes you don't need to know, do you? Who knows!