the art of failure

These are negatives of some of the first shots I took with a pin-hole camera. I saved them because I wanted to remind myself that even though I may fail several times, if I keep trying, I will get results. For those who have tried to take pictures with pin-hole cameras, you know what I'm talking about.

Tonight, I am wide awake at one in the morning and as I came across this picture once again, I am reminded of my failure this year. I have failed hugely, I mean, I didn't accomplish any of the things that I had set out to do. Failure, as most would say, is heart-breaking. I started to question everything in my life, why I was doing it and there were moments that I couldn't see the point in carrying on with my dreams. Thankfully, my heart settled down, and I saw all these failures as an opportunity to try again and again and again. 

I can't imagine what this next year holds, but I will keep going after the things I love. To give up, I think, is the worst failure of all, and what is failure but another opportunity to do things even better?

One day, I hope to show my kids these negatives and say, I didn't succeed at first, but I tried again and I did it. Not for anyone else, but for myself.